18 August 2014

A long the natural forest and the two dead birds

planted one

I found an earring in the earth

There is a wardrobe full of things

nobody seems to know from who they belonged

I ate two flowers a pink purple one and a lila one

It taste like salad



Yesterday we sat around the fire and the boys where talking about the villages where the were born

Platana was transported with makinas along the cable

where these machines where hanging there was a path

At one point of the path you had to walk very fast,

people said that a phantom of someone who died lived there

The machines hanging on the cable made strange sounds

A long the way

A long the road

There where two dead birds covering eachother with their wings

Melted wax on the stones of the path

Ancient walls

A piece of coconut

A ritual? Someone killed two pigeons


In a way they died together

Which was romantic

I could feel some presence

17 August 2014

Cursie

Barro Blanco

I started playing music on plastic buckets

Swinging the hips from the right to the left

Drums away the thoughts

Just the rithem of the plastic tons and different sizes of buckets

a hollow deep sound

asked for my full presence

for a second the body and mind joined

I got out of the second bus

Barro Blanco

the miss of the little white church was about to start

at the same moment people gathered from all sides

I wanted a beer

A man tried to convince me to take another drink because it was cold

When he saw me drinking the beer

he went off to the church

I saw the priest arrive with the car

One meter bellow the ground there is white mud

to make plates

16 August 2014

Houses made off garbage in Moravia

Lina asked me to join her, while I just woke up, I agreed

The centre of Moravia a school full of kids

All of them screaming for attention

incredible I thought this noise

I wonder if childeren in the Netherlands could reach for the same volume

We never knew eachother as a child

You should try again to be as strong as you where

when you where a child

You should let go

Am I your first Brazilian man

I was suprised

I pushed his head away when he tried to kiss me

Dancing in the same places again

with a man who has 5 million dollars

I miss you salsa

I recognize the place

Somewhere is somewhere far away

15 August 2014

Medellin for the third time

I do not want to work with you but I like you as a person

Sometimes you end up in situations like this

Medellin again with a plan

Some plan but not a strict plan

The airport and the road downwards

different perspectives on the city

with lights twinkeling away

Somehow I feel this strong attraction to this city

The chaos of the city the city with lights

the hills with lights

My friend was not at the airport

I asked someone for help

We were in the back of the car with four persons

The driver took sharp curves with full speed

The woman next to me showed me photos of her child that was just born

Felicitationes I said

the car took more sharp curves downwards

back into the city where my friend was waiting with a cab

I was happy to see him

14 August 2014

Girl you dont know much

She did not know the difference between a regular coffee and a coffee machiatto

How do you make a coffee machiatto?

She stared at us as if the question was very odd

People sleeping under blankets

the bus station
Back in Sao Paulo

Mummies around 5 o clock

Soon they would wake up

I had to go

A rush of adrenaline flourished through my body

The man next to me called someone

again he kept ringing people in the bus

Well I tried to unwrapp myseld of my rain clothing

I accidently sat next to him in my underwear

quickly I covered myself with clothes

Than he talked about salsa or some other dance

I assumed he was calling different women

I asked him after some hours

Sin sonido por favor?

13 August 2014

P. and M.

I observe the people around the metro

they walk

coming from different exits

Right, left from under from above

From the asphalt

Out of the asphalt

Between a cloud of pigeons stands a man

A round the pigeons stands a man

With his back and waving hands as if he is a pigeon

feeding them

dusting pigeons

in circles in the air

And there are P. and M. always cheerfull into their adventure

We swim in circles

in the tiny swimming pool of 2 by 3 metres

Than it rains and their is a electricity cut

in the darkness we think of a plan

a plan without a beginning and an end

You look like you are going to the moon

12 August 2014

Favella or an ice cream?

Just go to the favella take a big camera its fine

Favella or an ice cream?

The nomads are playing in the hall way of the metro

I feel African vibes I think of the fact that I wanted to travell to

your birthplace

I follow his advice

With the lift to the favella

Building Brasil

The lift of the metro leads you to this bridge straight into the favella

You just step into the blocks of the favella

the hall way of the metro has rock structures of the nature growing within the structure

And in the favella everyone sees Im not from there

I feel we had something in common

starting structures for a house

The fundamental aspects and me

Favella with views on the beaches of Rio de Janeiro

11 August 2014

The man with airplane drawings

In the corner of the street

the man is seated on the ground he has wafer thin legs

flinterdun

He has an enormous amount of A1 papers lying on the ground before him

Large posters with helicopters

Drawing would it be all that he has?

Drawing within the big sheets of childish helicopters

on the ground with a little tapestry

I walk and I watch

I was quite curious about his helicopters

his dreams

The dreams of a Stranger

10 August 2014

Afrodite / Venus said of Arles
Afrodite / Venus said of Milo

crouched for bathing

all faces of Afrodite have their own expression

Het licht valt op de vormen die vol en rond zijn

smachtende armen reikend naar liefde

I love you but I dont understand us

She felt sadness like the skies greyness

She felt the rain

Momenten van ontwijking

Momenten van negeren zonder gesprek

Achtergebleven met de leegte

No voice to tell me it is curagious what I was doing

I stare at the sculptures of Afrodite

met haar marmeren verlangen

She wants to get back with you

 Feel you

9 August 2014

The fullest moon after 20 years

Its a parade against machism and for womans rights

Naked bodies

Brazilian woman shouting with the drums

I need to check the exhibition,
the morning has been grey

It was like a strike through my brains

Would the work be wet?

I feel the moon

You look like twins but you are a couple

Excuse me are you going to a party?

French fries all deep fried

after eating Libanese pastry

spinach

cheese

egg plant

full moon

8 August 2014

Sue your Brazilian name is Sue

I knocked on the gate

Hola its Sue

Suprised to hear myself say Sue, might actually not fit me

Excuse me for falling asleep yesterday sometimes that happenes and

I dont know what to say anymore....

I remember my mother bought a lot of paint
Now I do miss that paint

I wish I would have brought a fine set of water colours

Sue! Sue! Dont fall a sleep!

I go out at the stairs

I guess I need a little fresh air

Black Car drives by

full of guys

They stalked me on my way home, try to get me in their car

Black Car again

I try

with strange movements to escape

Sue is not in the mood

Sue is not 100 procent well

7 August 2014

Ceviche with Crisps

I never had ceviche with crisps

It might be a refined version of what I ate in Peru

but

surely I do prefer the ceviche in Peru

it contains much more fresh chilli

I met new people during the opening of Marcos Chaves with people all dressed up

I was not impressed, I thought the pixels on the photographic prints where to big

People with shiny diamonts after I passed through the favella Santa Martha

There had just been a fire

5 fire cars in line

I stood in line for the cable car

that brought me to the top where you had a view

Jesus Christ with purple lightining looked like a magician

6 August 2014

Met Julia after 2 years

Seem it seems that I am here
rooftops in Santa Teresa

I love my room

after so many days I have my own room
I can lock and seal out the world

I could live here in Rio de Janeiro but it seems that the prices are going up
it is more attractive than Sao Paulo

more green

flourishing tropical plants

the beach with small islands around the costs

I feel like a tropical plant that could root here

Air that revives me

My hair feels soft , my skin shines again


Slowly I start to bloom while my blood flourishes as the moon gets stronger

5 August 2014

You don't want to talk to me

'I don't want to talk to you'

Gun shots on the edge of the hill

Que son los sonido's?

'Sabes todo lo mundo'

Dog barks a breeze passes by

More gun shots

I felt it might be people chasing the black birds in the sky

Someone might be dead

Later they tell me they are doing excersises

I feel bad thinking about we can not be friends we can not be 

we can not talk we can not we can 

we

someone might be dead by now because I dont believe them

Gunshots

we

Exhibition about the favella with oversaturated colours

like the landscapes cut up in pieces

strokes of colours

soundtrack of Jim Jarmusch film

Broken Flowers

there is no we

we we we we 

You look so much better with him 

we 

Gunshots

4 August 2014

Again I see the same person at the same place as three days ago

Are you from Madagascar?

what do you think Im a special species


No but the middle east? Like Marocco or more African
perhaps France or Colombian

You can go through another door and you will find another beach

You just dumb the cake you don't like with me?
I was thinking that he might not mind if I would drown
He might enjoy seeing me drowning slowly soaking with sea water

In the middle of the jungle I found a piece of wing a butterfly

Everybody thinks we are married and I think it makes him nervous

Singing songs that they sing in the synagogue
Cross over of Christian believe and the Jewish ones

I just would like to have a room to stay in

Suncream of our first vacation in France

I smell our memory

I don't know what had happened

with us

lets photograph, lets have lunch, lets have dinner

I had the same outfit on Monday at the same time the same place but only three days later as Friday

3 August 2014

Is that your wedding dress? No it is a dress with a pineapple

I discovered that there is no ground on my feet

No ground on my feet

Im in a liquid substantion

Sea

Pulls me back quite strongly

A two meter high wave covers my head
Sea pulls me back strongly again

I got water in my nose

The dark matters of the art

Darum wert es als dark matter

Das kann das sind intiatives and self organisiert

It so in between something

I swim back to the shore as fast as I could

Later they put a sign, dangerous current

You are far away

We are like 19 years old and call the guy in our class uncle

Im embarresed but in away I feel kinda young

I sit in front of the sailing boat with my foot interwined in the robes of the boat

Like a statue overlooking the sea

not able to speak or move in wathever way

2 August 2014

Ilha Grande and the ghost town near the prison

I would like to walk with you? Is that possible?
Yes sure he says

Young man with a orange knot of long hair from Colorado

he is carrying a guitar and has family members from Germany

I photographed him

There are many Pirot treasures on this island you know

He looks into a well a long the road

while he looks around and further into the well and tells me the treasure could be inside

Surely this one has been taken

He observes the surrounding

like he really knows there is a chest with gold

If I would find that chest I would like to build a museum

I would live there

I would create a ferry line

with four directions

east, west, south, north



in the middle of the atlantic ocean

I did not see him again

1 August 2014

Purple mountains change into Bleu mountains

A herdershond with a coconut
The purple colour changing into the faded blue azur

Sprechen Sie Deutch?
If you like to know if the dog speaks German you have to ask him

Mother of the cild with hotpants when she bands down to reach for the ball
her body shows her beautifull shapes the back of the body is perfect

She catches the eyes of a man and takes care of her children by entertaining them
with a ball game

Krekels are chanting on the way back to the hostel

Holandes thats a bit more uphill

Faded Azur changing into a darker blue

Do you?

31 July 2014

Hungry Pirhanha's

Perhaps I can take your portrait?

Well I suppose it could be nice on Lapa market.

The flesh hanging to dry crabs with a dark purple hairy leg

bound together

still hanging using their siccor hands

Piranha couple in the aquarium

They looked as curious as me when I was staring through the glass

perhaps because I have big eyes like them

I don't trust men easily I mentioned

Well why not?

The rest takes time

I think they might feel like eating me

30 July 2014

Progresso & Ordem

Progress and Order
Progressief en Ordelijkheid
Georganiseerdheid
Vooruitgang

I am happy you read my message
Signs of life on the borders of the ocean

'You did not answer my phone calls'
Suddenly my grandmother called
she thought she called my sister

'I will skype you later it is more economical'

'Your father has just walked in'

I know he is repainting the house

Paint scrapping paint

'As long as you are happy'
Her voice faded

Curly pieces of paint
Rain of old paint
It needs to be repainted

29 July 2014

A cold a sunny day on

Heavy head
Hurting Throught
You offered me an ice cold drink and
I felt like smoking a cigarette
And than I have seemed to forget your name

The opening felt cold
Flowing away my energy while I had to eat not much though

I ate lunch in the museum and you have to stand in line
the food is by weight

'The food contains more variety than in Colombia'

A broken pot with fruits near a tree

'Don't go there because its witchcraft'

It's not good to go near it
or make a
photograph

Left me wondering

Cold on a Sunny day hey

28 July 2014

Drops of Performance

Drops of Sugar,
Healthy sugar without
much
bad ingredients

I guess
Every morning I make a pot of Coffee
I had one this morning
And I had one on the day I wrote this
I must say I like sweet coffee with real milk

Toasted bread with a lot of butter
The drops of sugar
Are not the same
as aquarell
candarell

I don't know exactly what I did
but I invited some curators

The performance in the kitchen
The performance in the bathroom

Than they came in with dirty hands of making chapati-or with y
What exactly is this event?
The performance
I read a poem
For you

Dropping my thoughts

Azucar liquido

Sticky thoughts
on your trousers

'They probably where thinking of fucking each other'

27 July 2014

Sleeping in the exhibition

Sleeping on the streets with blankets from the church
I am happy I can stay with my friend.
So many people on the ground.
The streets of Sao Paulo.

A man rolled up in the corner of the shop
Somebody snorred while he was wrapped up like a mummy

A lot of buildings ar empty and sprayed full of tags with graffity
A lot of them have been squatted
Because the people simply have no sleeping place
No house

I have no house but I can not imagine myself sleeping on the street

This artist paints nomads, says Luciano.

Perhaps he can paint you?

Iooked at him and smiled

Most of the paintings were man, wild rough man.
I know I had a whole in my tights
but a nomad?

I use to want to be a gypsy girl
With a horse and a little wooden house with wheels
that would be light enough to carry for the horse
At night I would have a little lantern with petroleum
hanging on the wooden house that would slowly
make a curved movement because of the walking horse

Anyway

Horses can not cross Oceans

I am not a mermaid and this is not a fairy tale

26 July 2014

Six different tones of Green Eyes

Pauline has light green eyes, like a reptile Marcos said.
Allison had Olive green eyes.
I have brown eyes with green in them flowting around.

After my irisses burned in Greenland they turned greener
in my opinion

'You have interesting eyes'

He looked at me, one pupil is bigger than the other.
You have the same
I did not think so but okay

Olive green colour I had not seen before
We ate the food
I had ordered a hamburger that came with a dry bun
without anything
I stuffed it with chilly
To wake up

I am a mix of german, portuguese and italian.
My mother is very dominant
You both are dying

Three tones of greens

25 July 2014

Hanging works and Chachaca

While I was dancing I drunk a cocktail with chachaca
the drink of Brasil
There was a big red chili drifting in the drink
the chili was cut into half like a little animal

A red crocodile in the Amones with bid sharp theeth like
the seeds of the pepper bruning in your mouth

Another shot of chachaca
I was wearing brown mountain shoes
"Brown pour woman are often the victims of sexual harrasment
Man are normally quite aggressive
Its becuase of the slaves
Only the most aggresive slaves survived''

Anothes shot of chachaca
And a beer which was called ' The Other'
I danced on my mountain shoes
Danced with blue,purple and red lights
in the white gallery space and different Latin American songs
Another shot of chachaca

I ate my little red crocodile and my mouth burned
I think I looked strange
I certainly was underdressed

Another shot of chachaca
Just say beleza
If you'd like to say what's up

'The other tasted dreadfull'

24 July 2014

Letterpress with Ocupeacidade

The smell of ink in the studio

'We are printing rules inspired by the signs in the metro'

He showed me a little book with different pastel colors like small name cards

What a beautiful design! But it was not an artist book, it had more the do with religion.

I chose one card

De 10 geboden van god

10 commandments of god

10 mandamentos de Deus

We print 10 quotes from the metro and than we present them with posters
spray cans and a book. The book contains the 10 quotes printed with letterpress and than bookbinding them together with black glue.

You are not allowed to enter the metro
You are not allowed to step out of the metro

Walking out of the metro I met with the smell of deep fried patatoes

I forgot to eat and hurried to the studio where I met the smell of black printing ink

23 July 2014

Under the pavement I found you in another dimensionCracking thoughtsTo understand the way this space organises itselfGaining accesThrough GatesInto my realityConvince me it has been worth itRegret me it has been worth itQuild but it has been nice kinda chattingWe can create an ability to be togetherWithout a key to unlock meNew technologies to preventIf your hair shines it means youIt has been raining for daysSamba Seems strangeEvery time I space out in the taxi or busI see your faceAnd stuff....But honestly I don't like to be your secret underThe pavementWithout a lock for a doorTo gain accessLost in gravityAnd some time zoneswater to enter our pavementsOur streetsYour cityMy cityAre very fertile or vertileGreyness surrounds Sao Paulo

22 July 2014

सरोजिनी

The movie clip is showing big flowers fake lotus flowers but somehow splendid
I played different Hindi songs while we finished the curry
I realized I'm not such a good cook as my mother
And than I found the song I really loved

my favourite song from over there....
I realized how many songs my mother send me when I was in Tel Aviv
quite nice of her

I still have the pills from Tel Aviv, they really help against stomach age
Amit is friend there but also has a hindi signification

By the way sorry for all my spelling mistakes
and jokes with language that in the end are reminding me of the mouse in the kitchen
Trippling around eating chestnuts because it wants to have a bigger brain
So you? Would you like to be smart? Do you think your intelligent?
Perhaps I am patronizing you? mmmm? Yes so what?
Who gives a fuck?

Okay so anyway I love the flower that carries my name
I would slowly like to transform in to one
On the pound your pound slowly
transform into a nereida
Woman of the lotus flower
So my fingers would each carry the petal of the flower on the water
Victoria Regia in a lake by the amazon

21 July 2014

Balkeljouw Bakenau Kabeljouw

The water level is going down
The sea level is going up
But go away we will get stuck without drinkable water!

Aiaiaiaiaiaiaaai it's less drinkable
The way she walks is quite contagious
The way she moves is, she don't give no chances at all
aiaiaiaiaiaiaiaiaiaaaai ...the waterlevel is goins down

Today I went to the postoffice to send a handmade piece of a secret to a friend
Postcards to my father, my mother and my sister and my grandmother
and a friend.

I sat on the stairs the sun was shining
A marvellous pauw walked by - pavão

Bakelauw Bakenau Kabeljauw it all taste very well, good Bakenau

What a beauty shiny blue and green and his purle crown against the yellow concrete

Well in Suriname its orange kabeljauw...I remeber the world cup 20 years ago
We exchanged lids of Coca Cola bottles with names of all countries

A cold coca cola gliding through my trought
The way she dances in the street is quite contagious - pavão

The young boy has dirty socks he is with his grandmother
His name is Ricardo
She talks to me, I smile and say ...si!

20 degrees and nobody is showing naked legs
its wintertime
Slowly the temperature is rising
I smile again and say ....si!
How hot most it be before people would be taking their clothes of

I would love to speak to you on the phone

20 July 2014

Away with Arrows

An arrow like a fox on the pavement so I see

Perhaps lets talk French Spanish and English in one language

But nobody will have a clue

A clue of the red line within your story

Please have a namecard
Welcome to an exhibition of 2012
Exposure of duration
Radioactive exhibition
So to say

This exhibition is dangerous for your health

Stay away or green light will touch the brain function
trying to rephrase a memory

Radioactive exhibitions radiations until 4102

But please do come

An arrow like a fox on the pavement

I love the colour of your hair
Orange red

He is gay

yes but his sjaal smells nice

But he is gay - Yes and a guy

Foxy Lady with gloves

Gold glitter on my shoes when I wake up

golden glitters on the top of my nose

Goldn glitter shiny morning shine for me sun!

19 July 2014

Fluffy blue Ocean Clothing

I remembered

I had a jumper just like that / A purple Cadillac

just like that

On the upper part there was a light blue on the down part a darker blue

It was very soft to touch like a skin of a cat

As I walked though the city I stretched my tail

I asked the black cat to protect me

So I am

She will with her green eyes


look out for me

When I catch the last bus back

Trown away blue oceans
from my secondary school
trown a way like liquid
black garbage back
plastic shiny garbage ocean blue gliding into it

Saying goodbye to you is hard

18 July 2014

Je Joue

Two Jazz concerts overlapping eachother

One on the fifth floor and one outside in the public space

Bom dia bon dia buenos dias .......Hello (goedendag)!

I'm looking for Someone that is probably back at 20:00

'He does not understand English but he understands body language very well'

It is a couple

Playing with a little light

Grey Sky

entering the room

I spend a lot of time thinking about my clothes what I shoud where and so on and so on
clothing and so on and son on bla bla bla

'He understands body language very well'

I'm glad but hungry

Lipstick does not explain who I am

Hush now dont explain just say your remain hush now dont explain

hush rush hush

I ate the wurse hamburger ever worse than wurse

17 July 2014

Entering Down Town Looking for Phosphorous

Someone passed the stairs
Behind me of a patio
Casa de Imagem

I want...

Soon I have to find what I am looking for

It's taking me more time than I had aspected

you in my bed

It is warm on the background of the window view

I hear Brasil music

forcing me to go out of bed

dog barks

Sounds sounds sounds sssssounds of the city

With naked knees

You are not suppose to enter

churches

I want you

I just peaked in

Sure hope you thought about me

All the time

or

Just

A little bit

16 July 2014

Fog on the Airport of Sao Paulo

Rondom de vliegtuigen hing een dikke mist
verlaten vochtigheid
ik landde
maar mijn hoofd nog niet, zoals vaker

The mist of the airport fascinated me
Misty Sao Paulo
with tropical trees

Fog entered the bagage claim
And my mind
I was crying before
I left London
flash backs
transportation
The year I had lived there

I did not like the fysical contact with the man
next to me
Touching my arms and knees while he was sleeping
in the airplane

15 july 2014

Entering THE U.S. On a transit      

Washington instead of New York
Entering America
THE border police took its time to question people
An African family with traditional clothing was questioned
THE African Afro man was standing behind me he had informed me what time it was
when I had asked him
And there I was
With Swiss sunglasses And a big yellow dress with a Pineapple
Wearing mountain shoes with faded Brown leather
How long are you going to stay in Brasil?
Less than a month I replied
Yes but how long are you going to stay in Brasil exactly?
I dunno but less than a month
THE eyes of mister Kim grew stricter
Would he have Korean roots?
Thats like asking me what are you going to do in Amsterdam And replying
Eating peanut butter
I observed his face he had relaxed his eyebrows a little
Maybe it was because he had told me his Son likes water colours
I did not respond
I was a bit confused
Is That suppose to be a joke?